Fate?

I haven't said/thought it in a while, but...

Be strong, believe.
Have faith, in life.
More importantly, have faith in yourself.
And you will get to where you want to go.
With a smile.

Remember that.

There comes a time in life, when it's easier to just
                                                                         let
                                                                               it
                                                                                   go ...



Even if it is the hardest thing of all.

Perhaps here I should follow my own advise?

I just hate the fact that it is you that possesses that knowledge.

Trial and error. But who? See my problem.

Afraid of the outcome of the conversation, both of them.
Do I even want to know the truth?

Slipping...

I understand why people like that say the things they do, and constantly.
Yet the line that I once thought to appear, seems to be fading.

You belong to so many, I only wish you had time enough for me.
Am I one or the other, primarily?

And I know you think you're helping (and you usually are)
Today, you couldn't have made matters worse.

To be or not to be?

I feel like, it would be like stepping back in time, back to high school. With all the people, all in their own little niches, own little worlds, like a bubble. That on the inside I feel I have the power to pop, but when push comes to shove, that's exactly it, I'm pushed and shoved out again. Do I do it to myself?

I shouldn't let it get to me, but how long have I told myself that, I've lost count. Why do I always feel less than I'm worth? It's like the reality of it scares me, which is why I am so, because I'm so not even that way at all. Stupid perception/prediction of reality. Stupid fear. Is it all in my head?

If your excuse is just that, then it's weak. I would do it for you.

Thinking aloud.

It's funny how angry you make me sometimes, and always over the smallest of things.
But only ever for a moment.
Always forgiving.
Even when I don't want to be.


Am I the person that I want to be?
I wonder how many of us ask ourselves this question, I wonder what I would see if I looked into that mirror.


The signs confuse me...